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[30 Dec 2004|12:22pm] |
new years resolution....
try harder at college then i ever thought possible...
i want to be someone, so i have to work for it...
quit cig's.....
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[12 Dec 2004|07:28pm] |
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FINALS>.......not home until Wednesday night.......
Devo is already back in bend.....without me......sucks alone, other then the huge bed i now have haha..
after a month break, a nother hurtle to jum.....second simester...this time i am ready...
Strung-Out on tuesday......
FUN TIMES!
FINAL TOMOROW IN CALC.....last one.......
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[01 Nov 2004|09:11am] |
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bend was fun
back in reno now, classes and shit..........
i have my music and tv back!
its time for business.
i need to grow up........
......i am working on it......
Well That Is That And This Is This
You Tell Me What You Want And Ill Tell You What You Get
You Get Away From Me
You Get Away From Me
Collected My Belongings And I Left The Jail
Well Thanks For The Time
I Needed To Think A Spell
I Had To Think Awhile, I Had To Think Awhile
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[28 Oct 2004|03:05am] |
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11 hours untill departure for bend! i am so excited!
FOSS IS GROUNDED THE WEEKEND I COME BACK????
me and my shitty luck.......
<3's for foss
time to relax and get some sleep.
had a great night hanging out with Denice. a girl i met about 2 weeks ago at a kegger.
cool girl, lots of fun!
i did her dishes!
got props for that hahaha......
quite possible...but i am not chacing...
In the motions and the things that you say
It all will fall, fall right into place
As fruit drops, flesh it sags
Everything will fall right into place
When we die, some sink and some lay
But at least I don't see you float away
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[26 Oct 2004|02:39pm] |
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today was pretty relaxed then became stressfull very quickly. life changes quick, but i am ove that now, i have learned to not be upset and pissed off. there is no need to dwell on negitive events.
1 more class, and 1 more day closer to bend!
over all a good day....
And if I was Santa Claus, I'd fight for the cause
Wouldn't expect nothing in return
I'd give you everything you want, I'd be everything you need
So you can take my hand and I can take the lead
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[25 Oct 2004|06:04pm] |
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another day down, homeowrk, movies then sleep. and do it all again. on top of it all, i have to get this circuit primed (by myself) for wednesday. working model of my scale is due, i dont think it will be to hard. i talked on the phone with a lovely lady that i had really been wanting to chat with, 45 mins later. i am never on the phone that long, i hope she reads this!
YEAH!
time for some grub, homework then "fun" and sleep (by 2, i need sleep)
Now here I go again
just like before I'm going down
I try to practice what I wanna say
Like every time before
Don't bother waiting for me
cause I'll be on my way
thinking of you
It's taken me a little while to sit
and spell out everything I wanna say
But I think I'm ready to convey
You got me thinking i can change it all
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[25 Oct 2004|03:24am] |
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so another weekend down, and i got 4 days untill i see bend again! stoked as all hell!
I see the pain within your face love
And know the struggle it takes
To give yourself is often overwhelming
And though we share love
And I feel I know you well
I cannot guess what you do not tell me
Now we can sail the sea away today
I want you navigating close to me
That's how it's supposed to be
That's what I chose to see
But my peripheral vision
I'm living blind to the fact
That if I look a little closer
It's that detail he failed to recognize
I'm checking eyes and lips
Movements to soothe it
You say your cool
But think and don't lose it
I use that to build your trust
And in the end
It'll make me the man of all men
If you're my woman
That means we're double strong
Troubles long gone from my visions
I'm feeling how you're livin'
How you livin'
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[23 Oct 2004|01:29pm] |
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fucking great night! best time i have had in a while. dudtin had fun too haha
today is saterday, lazyness and relaxation. tonite i am gonna hang with my usual crew.
wacky kids, always comming up with crazy ass ideas and getting them selves into trouble haha.
reno is a crazy place.
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[21 Oct 2004|04:34pm] |
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so here it is.
compleatly lost, but having fun.
is it worth chasing, i think so, i am waiting it out.
eventually it will turn my direction.
hey EVERYONE POST YOUR CELL NUMBERS! so i can re-add them
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[19 Oct 2004|02:17am] |
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another week and on wednesday steve has to proove myself..
calc test and i better do good if i want to be an engineer,
followed by a 3 min oral presentation on are teams Digital-Scale.
infront of 7 PHD's. i am making a video, gonna try and make em laugh.
but other then that, normal week. feeling pretty good. got english tomorow :)
that means i get to hang with the hotty in that class, booyaa! (no chance with her)
but its still fun to try! i am tired, i got a long day tomorow, study for a test and make my video.
this is college, a crap ton of work, and alot of important things to get done all in one day, within 3 hours of eachother.
gotta love it, the presure, the work, the fun, THE BEER and most important ALL THE CUTE GIRLS I SEE, EVERYWHERE!!! hahahaha
i do love it, hard as fuck, but i do.
I had a drink the other day
Opinions were like kittens
I was giving them away and
I had a drink the other day
I had a lot to say
And I said
You will come down soon too
You will come down too soon
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[16 Oct 2004|12:13pm] |
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good fucking night....
called erin 12 millers down. and talked to a bunch of wasted kids in OSU.
fucking enjoying this alot!
( can you see me as a history teacher, or an engineer? )
i am having doubts on my major, histoy or engineering? its to hard
to decide between them? they bot intrest me tha same, and i have the ablity
to do both.
confusion???
I'd rather stay a loser And laugh at common sense Then rely on safety nets and reminisce As they struggle for mediocrity.
It has always been frustrating to try and explain
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[14 Oct 2004|04:40pm] |
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i miss my old life, i dident have a care, everything was much easyer. i miss the way things
once where, when i was with you.
brian l
jason s
alex s
casey s
blake g
nick s
richy v
arien l
erin g
amanda w
anna t
ashley t
there is too many to list, i miss you all.
I WILL BE IN BEND FOR HALOWEEN
I wish sometimes I wouldn't reminisce so much
such things, tend to make one reflect and dissect situations to an extreme
Hard now to redeem what was there before
No more gone are those days and ways have parted
Gone from feeling solid trust to outsmarted
Anyway, I'm now moving on to a distance far from yesterday
It's best this way..................
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[13 Oct 2004|04:33pm] |
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hahaha wow the El Jay still exists......
i dyed my hair dark brown, love it.
college is great.
classes suck, but its part of the expreeance.
i have been tossing the idea of changing degrees, to History major.
but that is a cop-out, i can be an engeneer, i can make that calery, i can be the future!
so i am gonna stick with it and see things as far as i can take them. wish me luck
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[27 Apr 2004|09:57pm] |
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little angelfuck
it's a shame that luck is the only thing
did you like the fun did you like the times that i promised you
won't be losing your breath little angel in red she isn't loving you anymore
little angelfuck i see you going down on a fireplug
little angelfuck size for everyone
love responsibly they are bound to believe she isn't loving you anymore
little angelfuck i see you going down on a fireplug oh, little angelfuck size for everyone
love responsibly, they are bound to believe
she isn't loving you anymore
misfits fucking rock!!!
download or buy the album "Legacy Of Brutality" best album for sure!
I got something to say
I killed your baby today
And it doesn't matter much to me
As long as it's dead
Well I got something to say
I raped your mother today
And it doesn't matter much to me
As long as she's spread
Sweet lovely death
I am waiting for your breath
Come sweet death, one last caress
Go
Sweet lovely death
I am waiting for your breath
Come sweet death, one last caress
Well, I got something to say
I killed your baby today
And it doesn't matter much to me
As long as it's dead
Sweet lovely death
I am waiting for your breath
oh sweet death...one last caress
so fucking badass!
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[22 Apr 2004|06:00pm] |
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packing for Reno.....gonna be fun!
still waiting till saterday night....(missing you)
life is good
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[21 Apr 2004|09:25pm] |
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i have till saterday! :(
reno with dustin! :)
good luck babe!
1 more day of school and i am done for this week!
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But when I, close my eyes and get a vision of love
She's all that I see
Ghetto diamond, free from confinement
Sparks in my mind lit flames in my heart, the part that is
T.A.M.I., the only one that understand me
(All for you, it's really all for you)
Days and nights I count away, she remind me
(All for you, it's really all for you)
Of dreams and things my inspiration brings into a world so crazy
(All for you, it's really all for you)
I look in your eyes and see a woman risin
All the guys been, tryin ta get between ya thighs
And true lies they tell, what your innocence hides
They never would've never guessed, you were so wise
I feel blessed to be able to see the part of you that's more special
I remember the stress, you passed the test
Plus you never needed to fuss through the strife and toil
You taught me how to keep my head high, now my life is yours
And I apologize for the things I did to cause you pain
I SPEAK not these words in vain, my days and nights
Are spent tryin ta put my name in lights
Convinced mommy raised me right
It only makes sense that you would be the one for me
I know you been with others but you savin some for me
You ain't mine, I would never try to contain you
Let you shine, and with this I put it all on the line
I find that it's
T.A.M.I., the only one that understand me
(All for you, it's really all for you)
Days and nights I count away, she remind me
(All for you, it's really all for you)
Of dreams and things my inspiration brings into a world so crazy
(All for you, it's really all for you)
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[13 Apr 2004|04:56pm] |
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today was good...(i hope she calls after work)
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He's not smart, a C student
And that's after buying his way into school
Beady eyes, and he's kinda dyslexic
Can he read? No one's really quite sure
He signs stuff and he executes people
Maybe that's why, he doesn't have any friends
Cocaine and a little drunk driving
Doesn't matter, when you're the Commander in Chief.
Idiot son of an asshole
He's the idiot son of an asshole
Idiot son of an asshole
He's the idiot son of an asshole
He's too dumb, to eat pretzels, apparently smart enough to fix an election.
Moved boldly into the White House,
but most people voted against him.
He likes naps, He really likes naptime, A couple of naps and then a nap and then he's ready for bed,
He may be from Bush decent, but he's always gonna be the unpresident.
Idiot son of an asshole
He's the idiot son of an asshole
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[11 Apr 2004|09:03pm] |
why the hell do i even try...when i already know that nothing will come of my efforts, other then a lower sence of self-esteam..........
i cant wait to leave bend, get out of high-school and get away form all this bullshit...a new routine................
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[09 Apr 2004|12:00am] |
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today was my big sis's birthday...she would be 21 (cheers laurel!)
tonite was good....quality time with casey, it was good to finaly get to hang with him for more then just 10mins for a c-bone date...fucked with a kid in a dodge NEON in casey's RS, not even close! it makes me want my RS sooo bad, as soon as i have about 6grand so i can drop 4g's for a down payment, and by then my parents said they would lend me the rest and i cna pay them back after colledge! so about 3 years...current bank account 1800.....should be 4000 after summer..
enough of that.....so my parents are leaving AGAIN, they trust me to much! if you wanna party call me (i am not joking, last time nobody called)
It's like a whirlwind of emotions occurs when moms and dads fight
It's like when a girl grins, an emotion of hers
That holds your arm, and grabs tight
Hurl him into the ocean, one of them cold sweat heat flash types
With extreme fluctuations and temperature changes
Have been known to crack pipes...
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[05 Apr 2004|03:50pm] |
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day after my birthday....shitty day!
so i got my car back (820 bucks), the cd player is broke (i dont feel like getting it fixed. just be MORE money) and i need to get a new front tire (yet more money)
i have given up hope on that pile of shit....
i need to take a nap..for a long time, today has been very tireing!
FUCK TODAY!
i want to go to a place where i cant be found!
c-bone asap!
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